i dont really like writing blogposts

i believe myself to be an artist : me sharing my thoughts isn't art unless i make it Beautiful Enough

ill admit, i could never keep a journal in my life

maybe it's not so bad though to be sharing what you have on your mind . whenever i see someone else sharing themselves with the world, i just cant help but want to do the same, be a part of the "unashamed" club

maybe i can be ?

i wish the only time i wrote blogposts wasnt when i'm half dissociating half staring into the wall, but hey, you gotta start somewhere

you can't stare into my eyes when im writing (i hope you cannot)

recently i've been finding songs. many songs. so many sonds, goddammit, my desire to make playlists is driving me insane but i'm not a big fan of any music services or the way a regular playlist looks like

i have a very beautiful burner, so i could make CDs, but i don't have anyone who would like them (allegedly). maybe one day. until then, i think about making little NODE CONNECTIONS between the songs i like. a little tree.

i know that people using obsidian love making this kind of stuff - obisidian is node-based notes taking app for computers and the phone, which i use sometimes, but i didn't get too deep into it yet.

however, this idea of connecting things together into a map seems really useful and appealing!

it also makes me think that node map is what (in my humble opinion) site maps should look like! it would be so fun, compared to a regular list.

i don't know much about nodes in terms of programming and math, but let a girl dream, okay?

so. the idea is... that a lot of songs kinda connect between each other, but in a way that would make a stupid two-items list. and i dont like that, because in my head EVERYTHING is connected, just not the same way, not with same intensity. thats why nodes would work great.

yes. i should definitely do that. it sounds like a great way to find new music to be fair! sometimes i feel like listening to a song, but a song thats EXACTLY same as the other one. or maybe i want a song on specific theme. i love the idea of nodes as a result. no idea how to code this but i'll figure some shit out!

UPDATE: half a month later, he DID get into an obsidian. LOL.